I feel like a body with no soul. No point in going on. I could just give up already. But then again there is that special person who I so dearly love. My mind better get its act together soon. I’m starting to scare myself.

It’s no longer a secret. Now you know that I adore you. This time around things will be different. Ill make it worth it. I’ll even put in extra effort to cover yours. I’m breaking my walls for you, so please don’t hurt me. Don’t find me boring. Don’t make me another girl. This time its real.

I really thought I no longer had feelings for you but once I heard that you’re with someone else, it breaks me. I keep thinking about the what ifs but that’s pointless now. No matter how much I want you again I know that I don’t deserve you. If I wasn’t willing to go through the hardships with you I don’t deserve to enjoy success with you. Since you’re happy now I should just be happy for you. At least I know that I was the reason you were happy once. It’ll make me sad knowing you’re with someone else but I’ll be strong. I was such a fool.

I hate moments like these. Moments where I keep thinking about you and remembering all the wonderful memories we shared. I bet you’ve probably moved on and so have I, but there are times when I like to think back. I don’t want to lose these precious memories and so I must try to remember it. It’s the only thing that I have left between you and I.

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